Goodbye 2011

Hello 2012 in less than a day time!!

If you were to ask me about my feelings, I don't know... I guess it's time to celebrate? But at the same time I don't know what I should celebrate... I guess I didn't achieve any important things! Or my wish I set at the start of 2011.

So I guess, it's just a feeling of setting new wishes/resolutions that I want to achieve at the end of 2012..

So here are my 2012 resolutions... (will try dig out my 2011 and see if I manage to do anything! Hahahah!)

1. Stay healthy! (eat on time, eat in moderations!)
2. Stay happy! (many things happen, but we need to take it easy and find solutions!)
3. Don't cry so much! (hahaha! It sounds like a small girl wish but I really need to be strong, Especially at work)
4. Go back studying! (needs to really think of my future)
5. Have a great 2012! (enjoy, live, no regrets!)
6. Meet up more often with friends! ( sorry all my friends, been wanting to meet but due to the many reasons, I can't.. )

I can't think of more now. It's still early in the morning! Hahaha!

Anyway, wishing all my readers out there a happy 2012! Hopefully 2011 has been great and I'm sure 2012 will be better! Take care and have a great year ahead!

See you guys next year! :))

MERRY CHRISTMAS?

hahahhaa! sorry for the lack of post.

really no mood uh! like seriously.

& i'm lazy and tired too. bleah! hahahaha!

unlucky week?

-2 pants spoilt.

conclusion- time to buy new ones. (or rather, time to go shopping again!)

hahahahah! :P

5 more mins to christmas.

MERRY CHRISTMAS, to all of you out there.

will post again before the end of year. (i hope! )

lazy uhhh!!! :X

Long awaited?

Lol! It's been so long since I blogged. Kind of lazy and not much exciting stuff to blog about, hence not in the mood to blog! Lol!

Anyway, still busy at work, with all the many many things waiting to do. Plus the customers are getting more irritating! :((( sigh right, but no choice! It's service line after all.

Alright. I guess I'll blog till here because I'm lazy! Hahahaha! Feel like taking a nap first before going to work! Bleah!

Tadah~
Byes!
Loves & kisses!

Lol! 1 more month to christmas!!

October!

Gosh! Time really fly doesn't it? Previous post was early sept, now it's oct and I'm already back from my holiday trip like what, 3weeks? Gosh!

And with the damn coupons that subway have, sales are so much better! Hence, more tired and easily irritated! Bleah! I hate those customers that are indecisive, wants to talk on the phone or to someone else when ordering! Gosh, can't you just order, go through it then do your stuff. Bear in mind that you have your stuff to do, we have ours too! And what if you decide that your call is more impt, bread less, then bread becomes cold and you complain? Is that our fault? Booboo to you!

Don't blame others for what happen if you are the cause of it. And it will stop irritating me if you can just do that. Just 2 more weeks of coupons! I can survive through this! Go away coupons! Stop letting others save! Increase my salary instead would be a better choice, right? :D hehehehe!

Alright, shall stop my complains here! Too fed up! Time to enjoy my day off! Watch a movie, read a book. :)

Byes!

Busy September!

So quickly it's Going to be the 2nd week of sep! Many things to do especially at work due to the many promotions coming up.. Hmmmm!

Then I going for my holiday 9 more days! :p hehehe! Can't wait.. Time for me to recharge and go on with life again! Go FE! You can do it! :))

Just changed the screen protector on my iPhone again! Too many dust! And it's so ugly before I change it. Hehehe! :)) so now, nice! :))

Alright! Got to go! Sleepy! Long day tmr!!! Nights! (:

to gain is to give,

EXPLOSION

my hairdryer exploded.

sparks from the hairdryer

and BOOM! a loud sound!

then all dark.

no power.

lol.

WORK

many things going on at work.

i dont know what i should do.

who is the 'bad person'?

who is the one who keeps stabbing others?

its scary to work in this environment,

not knowing if i'll be the next one targeted.

its becoming complicated.

i'm not sure if it will be okay actually..

sighs.

i guess thats what 隔墙有耳 means.

dont say too much even if there is no one around.

the wall has ear.

just be careful.

human beings can do anything to make them in the best shoes or to get what they want/need.

therefore, even a trusted someone can betray you overnight.

THOUGHTS

i really wonder why human being are so vulnerable.

thought of a quote kind of thing...

"To gain is to give."

To gain good results, hard work, determination and time needs to be given.

to get something that you want, you have to pay, and before that, you need to work.

so i guess, to make yourself secure on the position, it can also means pulling someone down?

sigh!! it feels so politic yet not govt. politics.

grr.

ELECTION (2)!

that reminds me of the upcoming presidential election this coming saturday.

which tan to vote for?

but i guess, i know who i want to vote for, though i'm not sure who will be elected afterall.

2 elections to vote for once i'm legal to vote, GOOD OR WHAT?

so 2 additional public holidays this year!

mom told me once,

you very lucky ah, just can vote, need to vote two times, normally dont even need to vote! hahahaha!

bro says....

then much better to have election every year therefore we get 2 more holidays in a year!

HAHAHAHA! (:

PLANS

i mean vacation holiday.

going to hongkong from 19th to 22nd sept.

taking leave to enjoy.

but its burning my pocket.

- $400 to change to HKD for shopping & hotel (& i dont think its enough! might change another 100 at least!)

- $300 for airtickets.

plus i just spent $180 on my new crumpler bag! (:

time to save money after my vacation so i can buy my macbook pro next year when my sis goes poly!

but then again, i dont know if i should get a ipad2 instead, since, tablet is the next thing! rather than PCs.

hmmmms! but ipad 3 is coming out next year!!

hahahaha!

that reminds me that i'm going to get new casing for my iphone 4 when i'm at HK. wooooots!

long post today.

too many things to share? HMMMMS! :P

byeeee!

anyway, i'm on twitter! :)

http://twitter.com/Smileyfe

follow me if you want. BYES~!

AUGUST!

wooots!

bought my crumpler bag!

super happy! :D

going to hongkong in sept too!

cant wait! (:

woooootssss!

this month, coming to an end again.

fast, fast, too fast. :/

alright.

got to go!

time to prepare for work! (:

byeeeeee! :D

tired

dead tired!

almost full shift on sunday! (7-3pm, 8-11pm)

followed by 10-11pm on monday!

cools.

now i'm drained.

yet, i'm still alive.

hehehees.

good to have a sleep all the way till 9.45am at least though i wished it could be longer.

might take another nap later.

(:

anyway, sorry for not posting much!

been busy at work, thats why.

many things to take note of.

and July is ending! 5 more days.

and to come to think of it, i didnt use my computer for like 2 days!

hahaha. i'm breaking my records.

i cant wait to get my macbook pro!

and cant wait to go hongkong for my holiday in sept.

hmmmms!

and i WANT MY CRUMPLER BAG LEH!

hehehe.

seems like my pocket is going to burn a hole if i get all of the items above.

hahahaa! (:

funny thing is i now feel like getting a saving account to keep my portion of my pay in it, so its really for saving, and not for using!!

(:

shall check it out online. (:

bye, hugs & kisses!

hahaha. (:

its JULY!

so fast.

half a year gone.

bleah.

dont feel like blogging mah.

booooo!

byes!

emotional

today.

no idea why.

i started being emotional.

listening to class 95 love story, love songs late at night.

thinking of my future..

thinking of so many things.

still no decision yet.

haha! i dont know why, but i feel as though i have no aim anymore.

i dont know what i want anymore in life.

i wanted to be a teacher while i was in sec sch.

then in poly i want to be a researcher sort.

but after i enter uni for that half a year, i have no aim.

now, i dont know still..

i'm happy working now.

planning for a trip to hongkong in sept if possible.

i dont know whats my plan for next year.

i was pretty sure i would go back to studying,

but given that working is fun and its kind of sad to go studying alone.

sigh!! i dont know lah!

maybe i'll enroll myself to something.

bleah!

bye!

quiet..

life at subway.

no customers mah!

hahahaha!! due to the vacation... lol.

:P and so many full timers at the moment.

so yeah.

kind of bored.

cleaning always.

hahaha! XD

i dont know what else to blog.

i want to get a macbook pro!! :D

but not now.

maybe ipad2 too!

but still unsure.

hahaha~

i want more apple products! hehehehee!

alright, time to go.

byeeee!

time flies

back to the topic of time moving too fast..

sometimes, i really hope that we have 48 hrs a day, yet, i dont want it at the same time. i doubt i have the strength for 48hrs, since i've less than 1/2 energy after 24hrs. BOOO!

& i'm always hungry.

HAHAHA!

okay, not always, but still!

esp. the night.

and the day.

(NOT THE WHOLE DAY LAH!)

hahahaha! okay, i'm crapping..

but i just want to blog since its the last day of MAY! gosh. time really really flies.

we are coming to the half year mark of 2011.

maybe now that i'm past the 21st mark, i sense that i'm getting older, hence, more observant of the days that is moving. just slightly less than 2months to me being 22! HAIYO!

too fast. too fast. too fast.

& i still dont know what i want for my future.

what i should do.

what i can do.

what i want to do.

my never ending problem.

and now again, i dont know if i should go back to studying.

and if i should, what i should study.

i feel as though i'm at my lost state again.

i'm happy now.

yet i dont know a year later.

or maybe a month later.

i just dont know what i want anymore.

bleah!

enough of the emos.

maybe i'm just lack of sleep.

and i'm still tired.

lol.

bye bye peeps!

hope for a better post soon! HAHAHA! :P

emo-

emo emo~

no idea why but i just want to emo..

maybe i'm too emotional.

maybe i have the concept where i only want to follow what i feel is right.

i dont know lah.

FEDUP WITH MYSELF.

SHUGS!

how many times have i made you angry?

boooooo FE!

hmmmmf!!

nights!

SORETHROAT

terrible one.

phlegm growing in my body again!

SIGHS~~

but good thing i'm off today so its okay for me.

i slept like a pig!

woke up 9am till 2+pm..

then slept all the way till 4+pm,

then sleep again for 30mins before going for dinner.

PIG, YES? NO?

and i think i'll sleep early today.

i'm still sleepy!!

tired.

body aching.

sore throat.

BLEAH!

opening tmr!

jiayou FE!

you can make it!

bye!

off day!

hehehe! its my off day today!

but i still have to get back to work later for maybe an hour or two, depending on how fast i can do ordering.

cools, not.

hahaha!

& i'm watching morning glory now!

woots!

not bad.

hahaha. (:

Life goes on...

the journey goes on!

Fe is still alive! hehehe. of course, just super busy with work.

i know, its lots of extra hours!

but at least i'm happy.

my bones feel as though its breaking.

but i'm okay.

just need more sleep, more food and more rest.

but yeah, other than that, i'm fine.

just need to do some time-management,

so i can meet up with my friends and also get back to reading books!

i miss reading!!

the only thing i read now is 8days and not forgetting newspaper.

hahaha, but i do miss reading!

so GO FE!

stay happy, stay cheerful!

the future is still so bright! (:

hahahahaha!

LOVES! (:

SMILEY.FE

S.M.I.L.E.

for a better week, a better coming month. (:

next week will be busy,

busy busy busy!

like always.

(:

just keep smiling because i feel better when i smile anyway. (:

painful...

fingers...

arghs...

i need to bandage them all.....

so painful so painful!!

go away hand eczema! X(

spreading

of my decision of withdrawing school have reached Ngee Ann poly?

HMMM....

suddenly I get facebook msg from my deputy director of my course.

how cool! hahaha..

i mean, what are the chances of such things happening?

though i'm kind of close of my lecturers, i've only really talk about it to one.

somehow i dont know how to reply to such msg.

yes, i mean, i do know what i want now..

but yet there are still lots of uncertainty.

thats life, isn't it?

i think i have matured.

from a person who only follows to deciding what i really want.

the old me would just follow what others say/do.

now, I do think about the impact it will bring to me and to others..

i know there are more cons of not getting a degree as compared to having one (in another 4 years time).

i just know that i'm not ready now.

I'm going to use this 1 year break to think through and then go into part time studying of something i really like. (even if that means going back into life science)

you know, i do like life science, i know that.

i just dont like the way it is taught in university. (i'm sorry!)

shouldnt learning be an enjoyable process?

but that past few weeks, all i felt was pressure, procrastinations, lost.

all my passion was gone.

so i guess leaving school not only make me happier but also NOT KILL MY PASSION FOR IT.

alright. i shall stop blogging.

enough of such weird feelings.

i've made my decision, and i'm sticking to it.

take time, enjoy life.

its only going 1/4 of my life.

so I'm going to think it through and live it as happily as ever!

CHEERS TO ME!

hahahaha! (:

i'm such a happy person now. (:

off to listen to my favorite song for now,

Need You Now, Lady Antebellum.

(go youtube if you haven hear this before! hehehehe!)

HIGH~

as though on drugs..

lots of customers today, but only 3 pple working, yet we manage to finish it. (:

is tired, yet on high mood.
woots. (:

last day of Feb and I'm dead happy.
a good way to end a month.

was feeling kinda terrible throughout this month, yet, i manage to pull it through and i enjoyed the last day.

needs to get more highhhh song!
so i can listen and get high.

sundaes & apple pie made my day.
with DOUBLE CHOC COOKIE.
chocolate indulge leads to overdose of 'highness'.

hehehe. alright pple, i hope this last day of feb has been a great one for you too! (:

say HELLO TO MARCH! (:

2 months passed in 2011.
10 more to go.

hahaha! I DONT KNOW WHAT AM I COUNTING DOWN TO ANYWAY.


i should change to be a fulltimer!
and get more pay! (:

then go learn japanese.
and consider part time studying next year. (:

LOVES!

byes & NIGHTS! (:

Changes

for better or worse?

i dont know, but i know that i did the correct choice of withdrawing from school because, i wasnt feeling happy afterall.

and they always say, live your life the way that you will be happy. right?
or did i come up with it myself?

hahahaha! (:

its okay,
as long as i know i'm happy.

i know i'm tired, but i'm really so much happier now.
i still feel moody sometimes but i think its PMS urh. (dont you agree?)
i get emotional easily when its the time of the month.
but i'm enjoying and being happy now~

just ended work, LATE, i know. but i had tons of fun with Shane & KC!
and in the afternoon, Tina & renan~
very fun~

there's one thing i like about closing, things get busy, we rush like mad, we are high (as though on drugs!)! we play loud music! even though theres so many many things to do, so many things to clean, we always work as a team! we do our part and make it cleaner! hehehehe.

i think i'm now too high till i'm still not sleeping!
i'm being an owl, awake in the night.

i'm thinking of taking japanese outside.
but not sure which school is better, more worth it.
sigh. anyone has a good one to recommend? hehehe.

planning to switch to full time too.
i want to go oversea, enjoy life a little.
hehehe.

alright, i better try and sleep, if not i'll be a zombie eh?

nights pple!

(:

uphill, downhill, everywhere.

thats what my emotions are these two days.

terrible feelings.

lost.

contradictions.

isolation.

crying.

feeling as though its the end of the world.

worried about making wrong choices.

felt like giving up everything.

and so many many things that i dont know what else describe it.

i guess, i'm just like a crab, strong on the outside, emotional on the inside.

a colleague told me ytd that she feels i'm a strong person..

yet i know deep down i'm not.

i'm just like a crab. :/

after talking it through with my mom,

i guess, i have more or less an idea what to do this two months or so.

but yet, i dont know if things will work out again..

i dont dare to step out, worried that every step i take is the wrong choice that i'll regret sooner or later. i'm thinking back to where i left sec sch... why i ended up taking biotech in poly.

and should i continue with in that direction..

whether i still have a passion for it.

my mind is mixed up..

my feelings are mixed up.

it has been like a roller coaster ride.

i know i told everyone i'm okay, i'm surviving in school.

but deep down, i know i'm not enjoying it anymore.

the moment i step into school, i start counting down to the hours left.

how do i enjoy going to school again?

is it the course or is it just me being naughty, not wanting to go to school.

what, tell me..

i need answers, yet i know only i have the answer to all the questions that i have.

but yet again, i cant decide on the answer myself.

its like liking it yet hating it at the same time.

is this what love is? or what passion is?

loving and hating together?

or am i in the wrong mindset afterall.

anyway, i'm sorry if i worry anyone out there.

I think its just a phase where i need to go through it now.

i think i just rushed into going into university last year.

didnt think of the things that i want.

i just told myself last year that i can survive uni.

but surviving and doing what i really want is different right?

now, i dont want to force myself into doing things that i dont want to do anymore.

not that i'm finding the easy way out.

its just, not appealing to me anymore.

i wonder why am i so upset with it.

somehow, i have a feeling that i had made up my mind.

yet, i keep telling myself that it might be a wrong choice.

sigh.

maybe i should just stop thinking about it for awhile.

let my mind roam free and easy.

maybe then i'll find a solution or an answer to what i want.

bye.

CNY!

新年快乐！

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR.

time flies, like SERIOUSLY.

was looking through my picture folder on my laptop and to realize that time flies.

its been 4 years since i graduated from SEC SCHOOL!

going 1 year since i graduated from POLY.

and i'm already going 4th week into my second semester in UNI!

been working at subway for like what, 9 months!?!

wow. time zoomed past, dont they.

and my pet hamster of 2 years and 5 month just left me today. (06-02-11)

[R.I.P my 豆豆/阿肥 (hamster), thanks for spending your 2 years and 5 months with me! (: I LOVE YOU FAT FAT! 17 Sept 2008 - 06 FEB 2011.]

alright. i hate time moving so fast uh.

or maybe because i'm living in singapore.

busyness leads to not stopping and enjoy life.

i just spent my 3 days of CNY holiday doing nothing school related.

completed only my microbiology report today.

only type a crap paragraph for my japan and singapore assignment.

didnt revise any other modules.

listen through the multimedia for japanese 1.

argh.

can i have another 4 days of holiday again?

PLEASE?

rewind leh!

FE IS PISSED OFF WITH TIME PASSING BY SO FAST.

HMMMMF!

okay, whatever.

i better go type somemore for my damn assignment 1. :/

BYES.

ERMMMMM....

i dont know. been feeling so lots of words.
i know i haven been blogging much.
its already the end of 3rd week of school, the last 2nd day of JANUARY! :/

fast isnt it, how 2010 pass, and now, its going 1 month past 2011! wow!
what have i been busy with?
studying my japanese like mad.
thats due to the 7 hrs of workload i have during school time.
2 hrs lecture, 5 hours tutorial in a week. DAMN.... cool. right?
hahahas. but its fun.
the tutorials especially.
met new friends! and what i can say is, you really need a lot of hard work to learn a new language now, when i'm what, going 22? shugs.

the earlier you learn a new language the better result, and faster too.
i have to keep reading the romanised words so i know how to read those hiragana words.
but i guess its fun. hehehe.
had fun with my tutorial class taking turn saying 1 - 120 in japanese? hahaha! thats like COOL! yet brain draining.

so now i can introduce myself, thats what you see on my msn nick anyway. hahaha!
and for tmr's tutorial, i'm going to learn how to point at things and ask what is that or tell what is that.
i like this phase, nan desu ka?
meaning: WHAT IS THIS?
hahahaha! so i have to know kore, sore,are, kono, sono, ano..
ano..... :P
alright. i better go and rest.
brain is draining after i stare at the vocab list for lesson 2 of japanese for like 30 mins. hehehe. i think i have a vocab quiz tmr too. hehehe. need to study harder! :D

oh, i suddenly so feel like WATCHING MOVIE UH!
and i want to go shopping!!! want to get more pants/shorts! :P

2nd week

of school already!

as i said that my this sem's timetable is slightly more slacked!
so, i guess i'm enjoying not going to school on tues,
ending school early on monday and thursday,
full days for wed (if there are practicals) and fridays (long hour break without tutorial, if not practical, ends school damn early! WOO! :D

anyway, this few days have been sick.
flu, tummyaches...
then result in not much appetite..
hand ezema seems to be getting worse! (cracked again!)
and not forgetting, ALWAYS FEELING COLD!
urgh! i wonder whats wrong with me! :((

i miss running...
one week, without going for a run! :/
due to this flu. sighs.
shall go see a doctor. (:

bye pple!

End of holiday!

There goes my 1month holiday. Okay, 1 month and 1 week! Seems long but it's nit long at all! Just 1 hr left to school reopen!

Spend my last day working. Mad right?? Plus it's 10hr work! Hehehe! Tiring but fun! And when I work, I realize that I miss cityvibe a lot! 1 week not working is like killing me! I miss the sandwiches and also the cookies! Can't wait to eat my choco chips cookie! Just left with a few days till the store open at clementi mall! :D looking forward!!

And I looking forward to school too since my time table is quite good! Left with tutorials and practicals to fill in! I really hope I don't have to go school on Tuesday! Hahaha! Cool right! :)

Alright, time to sleep if not tmr's English class will be my sleeping class! Haha!! :)

Night pple! Misses you!

Fun-filled!

Hello! Blogging using my iPhone hence it will be short! Hehe!!

6th January
-attended hygiene course at cairnhill community centre which is near to newton mrt station.. Class started at 9am and it ended at about 4pm, however the assessment took a long time! First was 48qns of MCQs followed by a practical test..
-ended at about 6:30pm and waited for kc to go for dinner together!
-made many new friends today. Might not know their name but it was fun just chatting! My partner for the practical assessment is cool! :D
-went to orchard ion
-walked around food hall but it's expensive so plan to go McDonald! But exited the wrong way hence, we ate burger king!
-window shopped a little.
-met analee at subway ion.
-went epi shop to play with the Mac books!
-kc bought new screen Protector for her iPhone!
-walked to shawhouse and back..
-part our ways at ion and wheellock.
-ended up seeing each other outside borders!
-parted our ways again!

What a fun day out with kc! :)
Will be going back to ngee Ann for open house and then to sp for open house and also look for kc and Renan at subway! :)
Shall blog again tmr with Photos! (I hope!)
Need to remember to bid for my jap module too!!

brand new year!

its 2nd day of 2011~

now that I dont have to work, i find myself being too free at home. hahaha! :P

but i guess it will start to get busy from tmr..

1. clean up my room! (need to clear my bookshelf, drawers, tables, notes!)

2. meet up with sec sch clique, poly clique!

3. bid for my modules! (ahhh! left with my Jap class and a singapore studies module.)

4. attend hygiene course!

5. visit NP for open house! HAHAHA!

6. go back to NP to visit the lecturers!

7. print notes for Sem 2! argh! :(

8. read story book!

and many many more. :D

alright. shall blog till here. (:

a good start to the new year with running, eating salad for dinner! WOOOO! :D

NICE! (: