life is just weird.

you know, i really gt the feeling of giving up..

i wanted to stop doing anything and just relax.

(i'm serious okay! cos i really dont feel like studying at all now~)

hahas... and i was feeling moody for the entire week...

since theres' a lot of things that i wasnt doing very well after all..

tutorials dont know how to do...

term paper not even half way done...

lab report unsure if i done it correctly..

but you know, I suddenly feels motivated again!

maybe its thanks to you u know...

hahas. i doubt you will read this, but i think partly u somehow make me feel that, i should really work hard for everything that I want, not to give up easily...

and you will be there for me, to encourage me... (:

I really like the feeling!

i feel that i'm nw in control.

i'll do my best.

not to fail my hopes for myself.

(:

jiayou FE.

i know life is weird~

haa~ and it always surprise/motivate you at the last moment.. (:

lalala~ (:

Fe is now a happy girl that will work hard for her own future!

(3 (3 (3 hahas. :3

byes readers!

and do work hard for urself too! (:

but not overly stress okay.

jiayou FE, jiayou everyone.

I'll reward myself with an Iphone and tons of story book in dec!

so JIAYOU FE! ((: i'm so waiting for my own reward to myself!! ((:

BLEAH!

LOL! i just anyhow press and my blog is in a mess and i got no mood to redo it anymore!

shits! :(

& i lost all my links. :(

how dumb am i...

arghs!

byes.

need to get my links back and tagboard! :((

well done

FE.

really well done.

you managed to fail one paper!

a paper that you leave it half blank.

with half done qns.

and only score 40%.

wth man.

whats wrong with you.

spend money to go to sch, yet you fail the paper.

what are you doing.

WHAT exactly are you thinking?

sighs. failed my paper. good thing its only 1 paper, bad thing is, I STILL FAIL IT.

sighs. sad thing is i see pple who get almost full marks. WTH.

i feel so stupid! why cant i do this paper.

why i didnt plan properly.

and do those that i know.

why, i waste my marks like its free.

why why why.

i hate myself, for failing this paper.

sigh.

need to go check paper.

which is too easy to check i think.

since i gt most of it wrong.

bad bad bad.

i dont like.

today, stared at fruit fly.

such a smallie creature.

but looks super biggie on the microscope.

with the eye staring at you.

its scary!

but its sleeping...

so its okay.

zzz fruit fly looks so poor thing.

with us poking them using brush.

then killing them in ethanol. :S

so i think i total killed at least 12 fruit flies.

poor thingy ah.

saw my genetics result.

cools.

first time i feel clever.

lol. but stupid thing i did was to look at the chem result then genetics.

but at least its sad before happy.

so i end up a little happier.

if its another way round, i might break down. lol.

sometimes i wonder if going to university is really the correct route to take.

so scary, i dont know what will happen if i fail one module after this sem.

hais.

feeling demoralize again i think.

i'm so not happy, studying.

sighs.

bad bad bad~

i shld go.

and stop thinking.

bye.

sighs~~

completed!

my reports!

now for CAs.

sians, i know. plus i dont have txbook for genetics.

& the book at NP is being borrowed. SIGH! not good! :((

sighs.

5th week

of sch is almost OVER!

gosh! i really feel that time flies too fast in uni! (:

gd thing or bad?

hmmms.

nvm, so fast its gg to be recess week soon.. another 2 more weeks or so. lol. getting used to sch already. was feeling depressed at time but it went off then came back then off again. haa~

catching up & therapy sessions in ngee ann was the best. haa~ really didnt want to leave... it just feel so comfortable! thanks Dr. Lau, Dr. Tan & huey shan! i really miss u guys tons. (: loves loves! i really miss poly. constructions constructions but the LT at LSCT are really NICE! (: gd thing i get to see it. :))

hehes. really miss it. and kakifuyong is loves! (:

uni food is okay, kind of cheap but nt everything is nice. haa! (i miss sim's japanese's curry salmon!!) hahaha.

alright, kind of tired already. hehes.

byes. update soon. :P

alumni's dinner on 18th! yesss. loves. great. another round of catching up! (: hehehes.

start,

of a brand new life experience....

University life.

where mixture of poly & JC students come together.

its been a week plus since sch started..

going for lectures & practicals are okay. getting use to them.

haven start tutorial yet. most likely next week.

so yeah, i hope it will be gd since i would be alone for some of them.

time to be independent and make new friends.

haas. (:

1st practical in NUS gave me a shock. its on biochemistry's pH & buffers.

normally, when we are in poly, the procedure for carrying out the experiment would be given, but this time round, we have to do it plan the experiment on our own to achieve what we need. Good thing my TA is nice and guide us along the way. hees. i see some of the TA dont care. hmmms. have to do a report on the experiments that was carried out. kind of hard since normally we just have to complete a wksht.. haa. even the equipments are different! pipettes are weird, no longer the motor operated. In NUS, we use those with suction. hahaha! so yeah, things are different in uni now. shall no longer compare it with poly.

2nd practical, LSM1102, molecular genetics, is so much better! since similar experiments were carried out in poly before! the beneficial thing is we dont have to learn how to use the micropipettes again! cos we use them very commonly in poly! (: so we did the isolation of DNA from E.coli and also 16 streaks! (: it has been like 2 yrs since i last streak a plate! i think it'll look ugly. haa! hopefully i get to take a pic the next prac lesson! (:

lectures are kind of hard to understand, esp the chemistry as we didnt really cover that fully in poly and yeah, i kind of lost my IPC notes. sighhh~ so i nw gt to try and remember and also have to study what i lost. haa. time to study yr 1 in poly back again. can i crash poly lecture? haa!

wed & thurs are my slack days. get to go to sch late (4-7pm) and come back early(10-12pm). lol. so things are okay, at least its not as packed. haa! but there are also long hrs of breaks. (longest for me would be even week fridays. since i gt lecture frm 8-10am then break frm 10 - 2pm. then another lecture at 2-4pm. sighs. kind of irritating. haa. its okay on odd weeks since i gt practicals, though tat means no lunch till 4pm? hahahas. :P

yeah, i guess thats life in uni for nw. i'm sure it'll become more busy. haa. (:

byes! (: & i'm missing poly life! hahahas. but looking forward to finish my uni~ :P

a new beginning...

in NUS! (:

things will be weird as we will be using HUGE lecture halls, LSCT's SMALL compared to NUS. haa. and I've 3 lectures tmr! first day of sch ah, and 3 lectures. hahas.

at least i've XW with me tmr morning, and sherryn, xw & PH with me for afternoon lec & lastly alone for the final lecture at 2pm - 4pm! then i'm officially off sch. haaaa! lucky no tutorial this week! if not, till 7pm with 2hrs break. lol. boringggg~

haa. still gt lots of things to do tmr.

just finish printing my lecture notes 5mins ago. hais hais. so hard to log in to IVLE. :/ hmmmms.

anyway, all the best to everyone starting sch! i know the polys are having their holiday now! so gd righttttt! no fair! haaa!

plus its the first day of the ghost mth tmr. hmmms...... lalalala~ shall take it easy.

first day, going to sch instead of work (after 3 mths) and nt going for lectures & stuff for like more than 5mths? cool or not?

hahaha! byebye! (:

"HUAT AH!"